i'm a slacker - stalker part 1

so - as you all can tell i took quite a break from writing. i do apologize.

umm... important things - i saw nkotb, twice. i see tina turner tomorrow. i'm starting a new school in january. i'm sadly still employed. i'm sure a few things here and there i'll fill in down the road.

i was reading my old emails and saw my old "stalker" melanie. i met her when i worked at gadzooks. i was walking around the store and this lady was singing along to the voices in her head and i said, sarcastically, "wow - that sounds great." her response - "why thank you hon, i just love to sing, i..."

before i knew it she had taken my arm and rattled off 30 facts ranging from her singing abilities to her love for writing erotica novels. she was mid 30's, peroxide hair and fire red dress at 2pm in the eastland mall in e'ville, indiana. she was odd.

anyways - i got away from her by going into the stock room for 10 minutes. i come out and she's waiting for me. just wants to know if i'd like to grab lunch sometime, "just as friends - friendship is alright by me" - in her words.

she asks if i have a girlfriend - i lied and said no, i have a boyfriend. "that's alright, i didn't think you were much in to girls."

i see this slightly crazy looking woman - so sad, so lonely. i say sure - we can grab lunch sometime. i think what's the harm, she can come to the mall - i'll give her 20 minutes of time on my break and maybe make her day a little brighter.

i give her my email address, and sadly - when pushed - gave her my phone number.

i leave work around 3pm and arrive home later that day around 5pm. i have 3 voicemails from her already. the third - "hey mark - i just thought i'd sing you a song." that was followed by a 6 minute 'original' number.

i didn't call back. later that night i got the first of many emails. listed below. please note that i never called her or wrote her back - but the phone calls and emails persisted over the following months.

the emails were random but consisted of ramblings, desire to be friends, and usually - some sexual reference. she flipped-flopped back and forth from being straight, to gay, and back again. and more then once - offered herself to me.

barf.

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Helllo Mark‏
From: Melanie Miller (XXxxxxXX@hotmail.com)
Sent: Sun 6/23/02 12:21 AM
To: xxxx_xXXXX@hotmail.com
Hi Mark, how are you? I'm glad to have met you, as I liked you instantly. I too am gay, as I like women but sadly I can not seem to find any women who like other women in the way that I do. Yes, it is upsetting to feel alone and no one to touch or even hold your hand and do not worry, as I would never think of trying to split you and your boyfriend apart, as I feel for one, you love him, so how could I do sumthing like that to a couple. I have a few male friends who like men as well, but they are in their 40's. I rarely see them anymore but they drop by now and then to say hello and give me a hug. I liked the touch of you hand in mine as I felt sheer friendship instantly. I get real good vibes from you. You are an attractive young man and if you ever did want me, I would never tell a soul but I would still not try to split you and your lover apart, as I am not that away. Sum woman are not very nice in this world, I'll say, to men or women either. I llike to be kind to as many of people as I can. I would love a friend to talk to. I just don't hang around to many people, just my uncle and my girlfriend, friend only. I would love to meet a 29 to 35 yr. old female who was into women only even 21 would not be so bad as long as the person is 19 and over is okay with me. I would like to meet a long blonde haired woman with blue eyes and light tan and slendor and attractive. I may not be so pretty but I used to be gorgeous when I was 17 and 18 yr.s old. I am getting older now and not as pretty as I used to be but I tell you I used to be a real knockout even in my twenties. I am almost 36, come this October the eight. Say, do you and your guy friend ever go dancing together? I see nothing wrong with it, as long as you love one another it is not a terrible thing. sum people jsut go to bed with anyone, not me. I am in it for the love. I have had my heart broken by men before is why I went to liking women. I have been intimate with men, yes, but I haven't been able to enjoy being with a man, in that way, for a long time, too long. I don't know if I could enjoy a man's touch again cause been used and hurts a lot and I would not wish to be used again. I would not want you to ever go through the heart ache I've been through. My ex-husband moved out and he and my 15 1/2 yr. old live together in his moms house as he does not live with me but my other son, who is 16 1/2 does live with me. He will be 17 in September. He is as tall or a bit taller than I am. he is so smart too, knows computers, and science but has trouble in English. I was okay in school, never went to college though but went to vocational school and got my CNA, certified nursing license. I plan on moving to Evansville in a few years, as my uncle owns five houses there and I might move from my home in five to six months or less if he buys one and I'll rent it off him for $225.00 a month as I pay $386.00 her and is way too high for this place, I'll say. I need a nicer place really. It's okay but want sumthing nicer. Well, Mark, I rented a movie so I may watch that, just picked it off the shelf tonight, it has Nicole Kidman in it. She's just the cutest thing and so is a few other women on the movies, I find attractive as well, like Salma Haymak. What a babe she is. It does not bother you that I am into women, surely, but sum people in Vincennes would not know how to take it. I like talking to people in Evansville a lot more as nicer people to relate too and I just don't really relate too well with many of the Vincennes folks around here. Well, I have been so busy writting my stories. I have sent lots off and a few will go out Sunday night to Canada. I am working on a guy-guy romance one, about two men falling in love. They meet in a cafe' and it will be hot, exciting and romantic. I will email it to you okay after I'm finished. it may be a week before I get to it but will soon enought. I jsut completed a lesbian story, erotic-fiction as well and that is one I am mailing off tomorrow. I wrote another one with an all gal lesbian party but a guy is involved but none of them have intercourse with the guy, he is just a male stripper only and that is all. I like to writea nd my friend, he is a published writter as well. Oh yes, I was telling you about sum addresses to send your talent too, music to. You do write your own songs, correct, just the lyrics alone, correct? I am going to hunt them up tomorrow and email you a few alright? There are lots of places in Nashville, Tn, that you can mail your CD too. My cousin Josh, he is getting his songs but is rap only, published. He is your age, nice looking, has a woman though and he is so sweet of a young man. I like him a lot cause he talked to me for the longest time months ago when he was visitung. He's had it rough in life, moms an alcolic. I rarely ever touch alcohol, only in moderation, is all. I guess this is getting a bit too long so I should go for now.
I think I'll try to watch sum of my movie and then go to bed. Knowing me, I'll most likey fall asleeep during the show. Talk to you later. take care.
Sweet hug to you...Melanie

PS By the way my number is, if you ever wish to call is 1-812-886-XXXX
Oh by the way, I think that is a good idea you used your birth year for part of your email. that was neat idea. I was gonna have mine WitchyAngel@hotmail.com or Angelwitch@hotmail.com Well, call you later...be good now and don't take any wooden nickles off of nobody. Wow, you are so handsome. I almost wish I could just hold your hand again as would satify me. The sex part, I don't care if ever happened, the feel of sumones hand that I feel a friendship for is more than enough for me. I would never impose myself on you or throw myself on you. I'm too much of a lady to act like that, have a little class about me. I'm really busy with my writtings and poetry and have a big chance to ahve all my 38 poems printed in a book, with Barmes and Noble. It will cost me for the ink though but my uncle may be able to help me a little out there and of course I'd pay him it back plus interest as well. Wish me lots of luck in my writtings and I do wish you all the best of luck with your boyfriend.
Love to you, Melanie or Angelwitch which is to be in my add soon in back of Globe, Satr and National Enquirer. I am having my comment and photo in a magazine too as signed the contract a week or two ago to give them permission to print my short piece and pic of me, I sent to them. well, this time I better let you go. I'll check my email around 12 noon to see if you've wrriten back to me...xoxo Bye for now you gorgeous man you. Was that okay to say as is true, you are quite stunning. Your boyfriend is one lucky guy, I'll say.