Thursday, May 21, 2009

hope past the belief of happiness

so boys blow ass.

though i'm sure that most people realize that. in the mean time focus on the latest of charice.

"with a touch of magic and a dream in your heart - anything is possible."

gotta believe

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Stalker Part 14

So this concludes the ending of the Melanie XX series. Sadly it's not one of sexual desires or freakishly delicious fantasies. Instead - months after disappearing - she resurrects into my life with a disjointed essay she claims to have written for a college course. only read it if you have nothing else to do - there's not much point except to highlight the basic absurdity that she is.

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"Choosing Your Religion": Article‏
From: Melanie XX (mXX@XXXX.com)
Sent: Wed 10/30/02 11:57 AM
To: Mark_XX@X.com
Melanie Miller

(Hi Mark, long time no see, Tell me what you think of my article I'm writting for a journalism class I'm now taking in college. Melanie

102 East XXXXX
XXX, Indiana
47XXX
812-886-XXXX

"Choosing Your Religion"

There was a time in my life when everything seemed to go wrong until one day I received well over a thousand dollars and no it was not by gambling. Money was scare and I needed it more than anyone I know. I am a pagan and perform spells and hold rituals during pagan festivities only. The spell I chanted was a money spell and I and a few of my friends gathered together, to cast different spells. We held hands in circle, my coven sisters and I, as we sang to tje diety of our choice.

The night was cool and a gentle breeze fell upon our faces. We danced for the gods and whorshipped them well, with jewelry layed at the altar and fruits as the gods and goddess love fruits and gifts. We are not a satanic cult, we are of the pagan faith religion and our beliefs are strong. We all have been baptised pagans, on Halloween night and it is a beautiful feeling to be baptised on the biggest festival of the annual event of witches and worlocks and pagans and is the best time of the calender month to perform spell casting. Halloween Eve is also exceptionally well night, to perform rituals, only good ones, not animal sacrificing as Wiccians and Pagans make and oath, to harm ye none!

I have been of the pagan religion for two years now and I quite enjoy it. When we pagans get together, we have meals, sing songs to the gods or goddess and even have camp fires and chant and be merry. We do not, however, celebrate Christmas and most witches do not believe in God but there are a few pagans that believe in a supreme being who created us. I enjoy paganism as their are so many Gods and Goddess to choose from to ask for request, to be answered. As long as is it not of 'evil bidding', then we pagans in our group, see nothing wrong with what we practice.

Yes paganism has come a long way baby and we pagans are here to stay! We act like anyone else, even hold meetings in a restaurant(s) or one of our choice and we have just as many members as a Satanic or Jehovah witness church. We get involved in spiritual activites, help support fund raisers, donate food, and clothing to the homeless as well, so anyone who speaks poorly against our religion is barking up the wrong tree. We have just as much right on this earth, as the christain believers do. I personally do not believe in one true God, for I believe there are many gods and goddess whom can answer prayers and requests. My money spell for instance, worked well, when I asked a certain diety for money and within a week, I received almost $2,000.00 Yes, you can ask for material things if you need them but not for only greed, for that it not what paganism is entirely about. We only ask for good things for us and others and if we believe in our prayers and requests to be answered and they are, then we know that the gods have blessed us well. Yes, better to know many gods and praise them, than to not know of any god at all. I love being a pagan and I always will enjoy the fact that I have converted to paganism for I have many gods and goddess to choose from and they do answer many of my hearts desires.

If you or anyone you know is into paganism, I say, it is nothing to be ashamed of, in fact, it only, makes you a better person for you choose what you want to be, whom you've decided to be your God and that is all that matters the most. Be happy, treat others kindly and wish the best for everyone and yourself, all the best of luck and love and you will then truely be blessed. Remember, no matter what religion or deity you choose to whorship, just be sure it is one that is helpful and not harmful towards yourself or others because those curse spells can and will backfire on you. Of all people who know this, I do! Yes, being a pagan does have its rewards, just see for yourself and you will be amazed at the many doors that will be open for you!

Thursday, November 27, 2008

gobble gobble

i commented on how rude my friends were to choose family over me on Thanksgiving. The conversation soon shifted.

Mark (Facebook status): is annoyed that his "friends" are choosing to hang out with family instead of him today. talk about selfish.

Jason: if you were in chi town i would have invited you! family is over rated!

Mark: ha - true. though if my memory is right i always liked your family. they seemed slightly off which reminded me of my family. i remember your sister with the big hair picking us up from the bowling alley and your 20lb brother drinking protein shakes.

memories.

Jason: yes those were the days but sadly i dont go home. my mother is a whore and my brother and sister live on opposite sides of the state.

you don't still throw the ball backwards do you?

Mark: hmm... ball backwards - basketball? i'm not sure i know that.

and i have to ask - how whorish is the old hag? don't really think of her as a hag but since we are currently calling her a whore i didn't think there would be any ill feelings.

Jason: you used to throw the bowlibg ball backwards. oh my mother met many a men over a phone dating service and slept with all of them one married her and how the hag lives in a trailer park in branson!!

Mark: haha - silver dollar city. my grandparents bought me my first whip there.

i hate to laugh - but it is kind of funny.

to make it up to you i'm going to wish she gets an STD not curable by ointment and she is forced to urinate in a bag for the rest of her life.

Jason: aww why thank you. she probably already has one living in that shit hole trailer that she resides in. ah the holidays bring out toucbing fanily feelings!!

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In honor of mandy -

I'll have a gobble gobble please.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Stalker Part 12, Part 13

I was kidding of course - only one email a day? who are we kidding.

these are the second and third for July 5th.

I enjoy the first one. she was outside and I guess she heard her phone ring and after what feels like months of no responses she assumes that maybe i had called her.

does that mean this was her first phone call she received since this started?

i would make a joke about the outfit she's wearing - but why bother.

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Did you just try to call me?‏
From: Amethest Miller (angelqueen666@XXXX.com)
You may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as unsafe
Sent: Fri 7/05/02 6:38 PM
To: Mark_XX@XX.com

Mark, did you just try to call me? If so, I was outside watering my flowers. Try to recall me again in a few minutes as am logging off now.

Melanie

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Hi, it's Melanie‏
From: Amethest Miller (angelqueen666@XXXX.com)
You may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as unsafe
Sent: Fri 7/05/02 6:56 PM
To: Mark_r1982@XXXX.com

Mark Sweety, if you wish to call me is fine. I'm home all by myself, wearing my crop top, with babe on it and short shorts, white fringed ones. I've been singing today and sending off my romance and suspense stories. I'm logging off now in case you wish to call me. Here is my number again:

1812 886-XXXX

PS you have amost Excellent Day now, you hear?

Stalker Part 9, Part 10, Part 11

Look at this - back to only one email a day.

that's better.

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Hello‏
From: Amethest Miller (angelqueen666@XXXX.com)
You may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as unsafe
Sent: Wed 7/03/02 12:21 AM
To: Mark_X@XXXX.com

I met a new guy tonight and we really seemed to hit it off fantastically. H eis 25 and I'm 35 but ten yrs. difference isn't really that much. I think I may start dating him. I was so hoping, deep down that you and I would hit it off eventually but see that would never happen. Oh well. I really seemed to feel we could at least be friends. Hope you wish to call me sumtime just to chat.

Melanie (AngelQueen666@XXXX.com

PS I still think your'e cute. Can't you even jsut write to me one time MARK? Just to say hi?

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Happy Fourth of July!‏
From: Amethest Miller (angelqueen666@XXXX.com)
You may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as unsafe
Sent: Thu 7/04/02 9:27 PM
To: Mark_X@XXXX.com

Here's wishing you a happy Fourth of July. Hope you can give me a call sumtime?

Melanie

ps You should have my number as I emailed it to you plently of times now. So go on, say hello to me, even in an email. angelqueen666@XXXX.com

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Did you get those music Adresses I sent you?‏
From: Amethest Miller (angelqueen666@XXXX.com)
You may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as unsafe
Sent: Fri 7/05/02 4:37 PM
To: Mark_X@XXXX.com

Mark, hit, I don't know why you won't at least email me. I was so hoping to hear from yuo. Did you get those music addresses I sent to you? You never acknowledge that you did. Well, I'm just sitting here not doing a whole lot. I sent my novel off as I recently finished it. Wonder if I'll hear from them or not soon. Well, hope you had a Great Fourth of July wit your guy friend.

You take care.

May Many bright Belling shower down on you, for Good Luck and Wealth to come your way.

Melanie

Say give me a buzz if you're home today 1 812 886 XXXX...would enjoy hearing from you in the near future.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Stalker Part 6, Part 7, Part 8...

so the last email was beginning to cross the line. but then she sent it 3 other times that day with different subject lines.

weird huh?

oh yeah - after sending that email 4 times she still found it in her to write another one that evening...

and then another....

and another.....

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ANGELQUEEN JUST WANTS 2 CHAT‏
From: Amethest Miller (angelqueen666@XXXX.com)
Medium riskYou may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as unsafe
Sent: Tue 7/02/02 6:18 PM
To: Mark_XXXXX@hotmail.com

Hi MARK, i CAN;T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU HAVEN'T AT LEAST EMAILED ME BY NOW. WAZ IT SUMTHING EYE SAID? i MUST OF SAID SUMTHING TO MAKE U NOT WANT 2 NO ME NOW HUH? WELL, NUGH' OF THAT, CAN'T CRY OVER IT NONE.

SAY, DID YOU YOU GET THOSE NEW MESSEGES I SENT W/THE ADDRESSES TO MAIL YOUR TAPES TOO? IF YOU NEED MORE, LET ME KNOW. I CALLED LIKE FOUR TIMES ALREADY BUT YOU SO DON'T WANT TO EITHER TALK TO ME OR JUST WAY TOO BUSY OF A SOCIAL LIFE OR WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND TO WANT TO KNOW ME, I GUESS? WELL, SO WOULD YOU EVER LIKE TO JUST EMAIL ME AND IS ALL? WOULD ENJOY A LETTER FROM YOU SUMDAY, YOU KNOW, JUST TO SAY "HI" EVEN. WELL, KEEP IN TOUCH, THAT'S K.I.T, IN COMPUTER JARGEN YOU KNOW.

SEE YA' IN YOUR DREAMS MARK...WINK...WINK :- )

XOXO, YOU ARE SOOO bOSS!!

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Record Company‏
From: Amethest Miller (angelqueen666@XXXX.com)
Medium riskYou may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as unsafe
Sent: Tue 7/02/02 7:27 PM
To: Mark_XXXX2@hotmail.com
Cc: angelqueen666@XXXX.com

Mark, if you want the BEST one yet, I just ran onto it and this is the address in Nasville you really want to sent your music too. If you want it, you'll just have no choice but to call me as this one, I so do not put in emails for others to read. Call me tonight before 7 p.m. to get the info on this record business recording studio. No FEE and send your poems/music, sung or written to the Attn: of a very into the recording studio, that my friend has sent to and he gave me this address. If you really want it, all you have to do is call me at 1812 886 XXXX or email me at angelqueen666@XXXX.com

Say Mark, is there sum reason you haven't been able to email me. Is your email full or sumthing? I've so had this happen to me and then they cut off your account, not with yahoo mail as it is way better than hotmail or aol and the messeges are like two seconds and they are sent and you get FREE spellcheck as well. Well, have a fantastic n' fun tyme with your boytoy! take it easy...don't bee cheesy, call me sumtime, we'll rap for a spell.

Love to you, Mel

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Fwd: Record Company‏
From: Amethest Miller (angelqueen666@XXXX.com)
Medium riskYou may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as unsafe
Sent: Tue 7/02/02 7:34 PM
To: Mark_XXXX@hotmail.com
Attachments: 1 attachment(s) Antivirus scanning by Trend Micro
Record Co...mht (2.5 KB)

Note: forwarded message attached.

Edlee Music.com log onto it for music address to send your music too. I so have the hottest one on paper, so be sure and call me for this one.


1812 886 XXXX

Melanie

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Stalker Part 5

4 days later this one appears. she got a new email address. angel queen 666. or would that be queen of lucifer's angels?

i remember this email creeped me out.

she would love to "rap" sometime. i believe she is the only person who has used that phrase besides mr. belding when he was substituting for miss bliss's home room class before bayside mysteriously relocated to california.

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Hi MARK!‏
From: Amethest Miller (angelqueen666@XXXX.com)
Medium riskYou may not know this sender.Mark as safe|Mark as unsafe
Sent: Tue 7/02/02 11:23 AM
To: Mark_r1982@hotmail.com
Cc: angelqueen666@XXXX.com

This is Melanie. You can email me at my new email at
AngelQueen666@XXXX.com Well, here are those record
compnaies I promised to send to you. Print them outnow
okay? I'm sortof like reading int he dark but I'll
read them good enough to send to you. There are tow of
them here.

1) 310-858-3300 (Music/Talent/ Artists/be in movies
pictures, send one photo of yourself, or talk to them,
first on phone. No coverage fee. Ask for Britany

2) Short-story contest: Young Author Society, 100
Second Street Box 122 South Jamesport, NY 11970

Also there is Edlee Music. I thi k you have to type
onto Edleemusic.com for the address there.
Say Mark, why don't you give me a buzz sumtime soon
okay? My new number is 1812 886 XXXX. I'd live to rap
with you for a few and I get lonely. See, I don't
really have any friends and no boyfriend either so you
can clal and won't have to deal with a guy at my house
so it's Kool to call me alrighty then? Yes, Mark, I
only want to be your friend really. I hope that is ok
with you. If you wanted me for more, don't get me
wrong, I'd love that but I would not push it. Say, are
you mad at me for sum reason? I won't call you no more
as you will not return my messeges so I tossed your
number aside and you can call me if you like. I get
the feeling you don't want to chat with me but I
understand. I guess I can just sit at home anf feel
sorry for myself that I can't find a friend.
Bye, hope these helped. I'll send sum legite ones soon
to you that will definitly help you get started in the
music business.
Love to you, melanie
ps Reply that at least you got this email form me
okay?
You don't even have to say hi, just say, got em. reply
at angelqueen666@yahoo.com
or call em anytime like from 12 noon to 5 p.m, Monday
through Friday, 1812 886 XXXX
Saturday, try me at 12 noon untill 5 p.m. as well. I'm
like so always home.